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Ugh.

I hate the feeling of distrust. Drives me completely insane. For those 6 plus years I was with Timofy, there was a lot of distrust. Truck loads. Lots of him going through my e-mails, and vice versa. Setting me up to "chat" with someone in hopes of catching me in the act. And vice versa. We had such a hard time learning to trust each other. Looking back on it now, I chalk it up to being young and dumb. We had no idea what we wanted. And if we did, it wasn't what the other wanted that is for sure. And we hurt each other in the process. It was a learning experience. I vowed never to put myself through that hell. And vowed never to put anyone else through it either.

I don't know what sparked this feeling of distrust this morning. I guess going through my e-mails earlier had something to do with it. The upkeep of constantly changing my passwords to throw off potential (and current) spies. Not that I think anyone would go through my e-mail accounts, but it's just a way to be safe. Protect myself if you will.

I always think, why would anyone want to peer their fragile eyes upon my nutzoid world? I am anything but interesting, but I guess to some my life seems salacious. It's quite dull if you ask me.

And besides, if someone wants to know what the hell is going on in my life, they should be woman (or man) enough to pose the question to me. Not behind my back like a little rat. Or big rat. Depending on the size of the person of course.

Obviously, I have issues to work through. Or do i? Could these feelings (a/k/a suspicions) be valid? Do I have a spy (or spies)?! Am I really delusional? Only time will tell.

AnyHO, this was just another reason to rant my ass off. What's new right? Ah, ok, time for bed... *snore*