One Day At A Time...

I'm fuming right now.

*meditation*

The main reason why I'm so upset is the past week has been complete shit. To be honest, it's been mostly a blur due to the fact that I have been trying to rearrange my sleep schedule. I'm doing my best to get my body used to going to bed no later than 2am, then being up sometime between 8am and 10am. This may sound frivolous, but considering the hours I have kept over the past few years, this has been seriously hard on me.

I've felt like a zombie all week. I've been coming in and out of consciousness as I slept the majority of the days. I've skipped meals and workouts... not to mention other responsibilities I had. I feel so out of touch. And that enrages me. I hate not being in control.

I do know that this rearrangement will benefit me in the long run. I can't continue to keep the schedule I have become accustomed to if I want to get back to work/school and make progress here at home. The sleeping regiment I have had was not healthy so I needed to take action.

I can tell that my body is having a hard time adjusting to the new regiment thanks to the many aches and pains I have experienced over the past 48 hours. My stomach is on full roller coaster mode. My muscles are weak. My head has been pounding at various times of the day. By no means exciting. But I have to get through it. I keep reminding myself what my goals are. And those are my number one priority.

Wow, I sound like a drug addict in a 12 step program.

As I look out my window, I see that it is a gorgeous day. I am deciding on a plan of attack. I have laundry to finish, papers to sort, and a bathroom to clean. And once I am done with that, I will tackle the closest, bedroom, and dining room. So much to accomplish, so little time. But I know I can do it. But once I begin the process, the possibilities are endless.

Now if I can just get over the fact that I lost a much sought after item I physically won on eBay because of the fucking internet connection that has been down, then I will progress just fine. But I can still be pissed at AT&T for their constant screw-ups with the cable and internet. If one of their employees was here, I would gladly slap the taste out of their mouth.

*mediation*