I have come to the conclusion that I will probably never have the relationship I would like with my brother or my sister. I come from a different world than they do. Actually, that is how I feel about most of my family. I feel so alienated, but I do think that comes from years of being put on the side lines - which in turn has taught me a great deal about myself.
I feel that most of my family probably think I'm some kind of smug bastard because I left for California. I would gather they would feel I am trying to dissociate myself from them, and rightfully so. There is a certain portion of my entire family that I don't relate to, or have no desire to relate to. This mostly pertains to my father's side of the family - which I always felt to be much of an outcast as a kid. I still share that feeling as an adult.
But beyond all of that, the relationship (of lack thereof) that is strained the most seems to be the one with my younger brother - to which we will call RJ. I got my hopes up of a closer relationship at one point when my brother revealed something personal to me many years back. That excitement lasted only but a second as in typical "Lopez" fashion the reveal was taken aback. You can read between the lines there.
I know for a fact that I have the "older brother knows all syndrome" but at least I own up to it. Actually I've learned to own up to quite a bit. (sidenote: thank you Woods) I've also learned to speak my mind and stand up for myself. (sidenote: thank you Timofy) But my brother is younger, so he is still figuring his life out. Maybe that is why we don't relate so well.
I would very much like to have a friendly relationship with my siblings, but I don't want to feel that I am the only one making that kind of effort. I'm not into wasting my time with relationships so if they have no desire to go forth with it, then I would prefer for them to be honest with me so we will all know where we all stand. But I don't think they are ready for that. I guess I'm impatient. Damn that Sagittarius trait.
Oh well, I will cherish the day when I can see eye to eye with my brother and sister. But until that day comes, I will enjoy the "family" that I have created for myself because they mean the world to me.
This modernized journal belongs to the Los Angeles based, self proclaimed narcissist, & all around slag Whiplash Lopenski.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
Deeper Shade Of Proud
It's official: Pride season has started. Long Beach Pride kicked off this past weekend.
*yawn*
Whatever. Woods and I decided to skip LB Pride this year. Two reasons: money and energy.
Money - I couldn't fathom spending 20 bucks each for admission. Yea, well, it may be cute to hang out with all of your gay sisters and brothers for the day, but once you add that amount with what you will spend on alcohol and food. No thanks Louise!
Energy - Not that I didn't have the energy for it (because you know I do!), I just felt I would rather channel it towards completing something more constructive such as working on the house, catching up on the DVR, finishing some errands, hitting the gym, or sleeping. Yea, I said sleeping. Shut up.
The only down fall from not attending the festival was not being able to see the entertainment such as The Ones (love them), Martha Wash, Crystal Waters and Linda Clifford. But here's to hoping that I will have another opportunity to see them again soon. *crosses fingers*
Now when LA Pride comes around next month, I'm all about it. I'm already planning to bring my milkshake to the yard! Awe yea.
*yawn*
Whatever. Woods and I decided to skip LB Pride this year. Two reasons: money and energy.
Money - I couldn't fathom spending 20 bucks each for admission. Yea, well, it may be cute to hang out with all of your gay sisters and brothers for the day, but once you add that amount with what you will spend on alcohol and food. No thanks Louise!
Energy - Not that I didn't have the energy for it (because you know I do!), I just felt I would rather channel it towards completing something more constructive such as working on the house, catching up on the DVR, finishing some errands, hitting the gym, or sleeping. Yea, I said sleeping. Shut up.
The only down fall from not attending the festival was not being able to see the entertainment such as The Ones (love them), Martha Wash, Crystal Waters and Linda Clifford. But here's to hoping that I will have another opportunity to see them again soon. *crosses fingers*
Now when LA Pride comes around next month, I'm all about it. I'm already planning to bring my milkshake to the yard! Awe yea.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Sheep Herding 101
Gross.
Just gag me with a cross, please.
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Thousands flock to Vatican to back pope over abuse
By NICOLE WINFIELD, Associated Press Writer Nicole Winfield, Associated Press Writer
Just gag me with a cross, please.
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Thousands flock to Vatican to back pope over abuse
By NICOLE WINFIELD, Associated Press Writer Nicole Winfield, Associated Press Writer
VATICAN CITY – A crowd estimated by the Vatican at 150,000 filled St. Peter's Square on Sunday in a major show of support for Pope Benedict XVI over the clerical sex abuse scandal.
Benedict said he was comforted by such a "beautiful and spontaneous show of faith and solidarity" and again denounced what he called the "sin" that has infected the church and needs to be purified.
Citing estimates from Vatican police, the Vatican press office said 150,000 people had turned out for the demonstration organized by an association of 68 Italian lay groups.
Despite a drizzling rain, the balloon- and banner-toting faithful from around Italy overflowed from the piazza; banners hung up on Bernini's colonnade encircling the piazza read "Together with the pope," and "Don't be afraid, Jesus won out over evil."
Such large crowds are usually reserved for major holiday Masses and canonizations, not for Benedict's brief Sunday blessings from his studio window. The crowd interrupted Benedict frequently with applause and shouts of "Benedetto!" and the pontiff himself strayed from his prepared remarks to thank them again and again.
"Thank you for your presence and trust," he said. "All of Italy is here."
Benedict didn't refer explicitly to the scandal, but repeated his recently stated position that the scandal was born of sins within the church, which must be purified.
"The true enemy to fear and to fight against is sin, the spiritual evil that unfortunately sometimes infects even members of the church," he said.
The Vatican has been mired in scandal amid hundreds of reports in Europe, the United States and elsewhere of priests who raped and molested children while bishops and Vatican officials turned a blind eye. Benedict's own handling of cases has also come under fire.
Rome's center-right Mayor Gianni Alemanno was in the crowd, along with other pro-Vatican Italian officials.
"We want to show our solidarity to the pope and transmit the message that single individuals make mistakes but institutions, faith and religion cannot be questioned," Alemanno told Associated Press Television News. "We will not allow this."
Friday, May 14, 2010
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Shark In These Waters
My mood ring colour is burning a hue of bummed.
I was supposed to go to see VV Brown at the Troubadour this evening, but due to certain circumstances, it is no longer happening. Surprisingly I planned the evening out well for myself, but apparently not for the other party.
As always, this comes down to timing and communication. I feel no matter the cause of the situation, it's all weighted in on my end. I always feel the sting when dealing with the soap opera that is the communication department.
*sigh*
Live and learn.
Hopefully, I will get another chance to see her soon. I hope the saying stays true... "third times the charm" as this would be the second time I missed her.
In lieu of concert going, I will take myself to the gym for some much needed tension release through lifting and listening to my selections of the best dance music around.
Au revoir Miss Brown. For now.
I was supposed to go to see VV Brown at the Troubadour this evening, but due to certain circumstances, it is no longer happening. Surprisingly I planned the evening out well for myself, but apparently not for the other party.
As always, this comes down to timing and communication. I feel no matter the cause of the situation, it's all weighted in on my end. I always feel the sting when dealing with the soap opera that is the communication department.
*sigh*
Live and learn.
Hopefully, I will get another chance to see her soon. I hope the saying stays true... "third times the charm" as this would be the second time I missed her.
In lieu of concert going, I will take myself to the gym for some much needed tension release through lifting and listening to my selections of the best dance music around.
Au revoir Miss Brown. For now.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Apartment For Rent
Good lord. As I mentioned a couple of weeks ago, the M4M Craigslist posts for Los Angeles are simply out of this world.
Just look at what I came across today...
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Surfer showing an Apt for Rent - m4m - 30 (Manhattan Beach)
Dude. You were showing an Apt for Rent in Manhattan Beach. I came by to see the apartment, asked to use the bathroom and left the door ajar. You saw my big cock and came in and started to blow me. It was so fucking hot, but then another dude showed up to see the place and I got nervous and had to bail (I have a GF). I came back about 20 minutes later and no one answered the door, but I walked around and peaked in the windows and saw you getting screwed front and back by 2 dudes. One guy was pulling your hair while the other guy was slapping your ass. I was kind of grossed out and turned on at the same time. Can't believe you're so fucking hot and straight looking but such a slut! I've had a hardon for you ever since. DUDE. I have to hook up with you. How do I get a hold of you? I hope you see this, I keep going past the apt and never see you there, but the For Rent sign is still out. I want to give you the best fuck you've EVER had. I could tell you really liked it when I played with your nipples. My dick gets a lot bigger when I'm not nervous.
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Brava!
That has to be one of the best Missed Connections on LA's Craigslist I have ever seen. I almost sent a message to that person with my compliments... almost.
Just look at what I came across today...
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Surfer showing an Apt for Rent - m4m - 30 (Manhattan Beach)
Dude. You were showing an Apt for Rent in Manhattan Beach. I came by to see the apartment, asked to use the bathroom and left the door ajar. You saw my big cock and came in and started to blow me. It was so fucking hot, but then another dude showed up to see the place and I got nervous and had to bail (I have a GF). I came back about 20 minutes later and no one answered the door, but I walked around and peaked in the windows and saw you getting screwed front and back by 2 dudes. One guy was pulling your hair while the other guy was slapping your ass. I was kind of grossed out and turned on at the same time. Can't believe you're so fucking hot and straight looking but such a slut! I've had a hardon for you ever since. DUDE. I have to hook up with you. How do I get a hold of you? I hope you see this, I keep going past the apt and never see you there, but the For Rent sign is still out. I want to give you the best fuck you've EVER had. I could tell you really liked it when I played with your nipples. My dick gets a lot bigger when I'm not nervous.
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Brava!
That has to be one of the best Missed Connections on LA's Craigslist I have ever seen. I almost sent a message to that person with my compliments... almost.
Monday, May 10, 2010
All That Was Missing Was Goldilocks
Woods and I celebrated Mother's Day with a jaunt out to Bears In Space at Akbar. We both could not spend it with our mother's as mine is in Arizona (she got a phone call in the afternoon) and Woods' mom is in England on holiday. So we did the next best thing - hang out at a bar with a bunch of intoxicated randy bearded homos with hairy chests and asses from the eastside.
Let me tell you that this night had a very old school San Francisco feel going on. Horny guys making out everywhere (one couple even rough-housing in the corner), an extremely dirty hairy go-go dancer (flop flip), and nice bare ass at the urinal. I felt I was catapulted back to SF a few years ago.
All of that made for a wonderful evening. I even go to see a bunch of familiar faces - Crystal, Sean DeLear, The Guzman, Squeaky, Jason, Rose, B, and so forth. Hanging out those peoples and two dollar domestics makes Whip a happy boy. I think we will be going back next month - we'll have to celebrate Father's Day early. I actually celebrate "Daddy's Day" - for obvious reasons. Hot.
Let me tell you that this night had a very old school San Francisco feel going on. Horny guys making out everywhere (one couple even rough-housing in the corner), an extremely dirty hairy go-go dancer (flop flip), and nice bare ass at the urinal. I felt I was catapulted back to SF a few years ago.
All of that made for a wonderful evening. I even go to see a bunch of familiar faces - Crystal, Sean DeLear, The Guzman, Squeaky, Jason, Rose, B, and so forth. Hanging out those peoples and two dollar domestics makes Whip a happy boy. I think we will be going back next month - we'll have to celebrate Father's Day early. I actually celebrate "Daddy's Day" - for obvious reasons. Hot.
Saturday, May 08, 2010
The Legends Live In Los Angeles
The moods have shifted. A short(er) chat dispelled all negativity. Whew. I was worried it would be a long drawn out process. I'm glad it wasn't because clearing that up helped me enjoy this past evening's event.
Woods, Piglet and I attended Joey Arias and Sherry Vine's Looking Back At The Future @ Barre at Vermont (or whatever it's called right now). And as with last Friday's show, it was phenomenal. But to be honest, it was a bit more enjoyable this time around due to the crowd. Many jokes were aimed at or about the attendees - such as Jackie Beat, Candis Cayne, Alexis Arquette. It was much more of a "family" feel. I think that always adds to the vibe of the show.
I hate to say it, but sometimes the San Francisco crowds can be a bit stuffy. I remember Jackie Beat made a comment about it once - saying something along the lines that (quite a bit of) people in SF are more sensitive when it comes to irony, and "offensive" humor. Regardless of the fact that the city is very progressive, the flipside is they are quite uptight. Overly PC if you will.
I'm just happy that Piglet enjoyed himself - she was a virgin to the sights and talents of Joey and Sherry. It was nice that we got to chat with Sherry and Joey again post show - even snapping a picture or two. Altho one of the photos I'm going to have to photoshop - Woods looks like she's stoned. Oy vey.
Woods, Piglet and I attended Joey Arias and Sherry Vine's Looking Back At The Future @ Barre at Vermont (or whatever it's called right now). And as with last Friday's show, it was phenomenal. But to be honest, it was a bit more enjoyable this time around due to the crowd. Many jokes were aimed at or about the attendees - such as Jackie Beat, Candis Cayne, Alexis Arquette. It was much more of a "family" feel. I think that always adds to the vibe of the show.
I hate to say it, but sometimes the San Francisco crowds can be a bit stuffy. I remember Jackie Beat made a comment about it once - saying something along the lines that (quite a bit of) people in SF are more sensitive when it comes to irony, and "offensive" humor. Regardless of the fact that the city is very progressive, the flipside is they are quite uptight. Overly PC if you will.
I'm just happy that Piglet enjoyed himself - she was a virgin to the sights and talents of Joey and Sherry. It was nice that we got to chat with Sherry and Joey again post show - even snapping a picture or two. Altho one of the photos I'm going to have to photoshop - Woods looks like she's stoned. Oy vey.
Friday, May 07, 2010
Moods Aren't Just For Lopenskis Anymore
As much as I love to talk a big game about how great everything is, every now and again I get hit with a speedbump. And this time it's about the "cheerleading" issue again. It's a blended concoction mixed with moods, miscommunication, misread reactions, and silence. All of the four things I certainly don't like to deal with. Oh well, it's has to be dealt with whether I like it or not.
Argh.
I have way too many thoughts in my head at the moment so I will just have to revisit this issue tomorrow. I need to eat some food then go to bed. I'm sure all will become clear after a night of pleasant dreams...
Argh.
I have way too many thoughts in my head at the moment so I will just have to revisit this issue tomorrow. I need to eat some food then go to bed. I'm sure all will become clear after a night of pleasant dreams...
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
Fifth-o De Mayo
I am not celebrating Cinco De Mayo this year 'round. I'm still recovering from the weekend. And my allergies are all funked up. Yuck.
I swear the minute I got back into the LA area, I started to get all congested. That means KTLA had it right - this is one of the worst years for pollen and cold/flus. Double yuck. I guess there is only one way to beat it... hit the gym. I'm off to re-start the workout process. It's been a week since I was there last so it should be interesting...
My abs will not be thanking me tomorrow.
I swear the minute I got back into the LA area, I started to get all congested. That means KTLA had it right - this is one of the worst years for pollen and cold/flus. Double yuck. I guess there is only one way to beat it... hit the gym. I'm off to re-start the workout process. It's been a week since I was there last so it should be interesting...
My abs will not be thanking me tomorrow.
Tuesday, May 04, 2010
The Whore Returns
I am back home in Los Angeles. All safe and sound.
The weekend was outrageously exciting - speaking for myself of course. I gathered my brother and KP enjoyed their time in SF, but at times I couldn't get a read on them. Moods - it runs in the family.
Oh well, I think I shall list the key moments from the trip. Drumroll please!
*drumroll*
1. Juanita More's Funky Chicken Dinner @ Mars Bars. Dining Out For AIDS, yay for good causes!
2. Getting cruised at Mars Bars.
3. Wicked (& the bum fight on the walk to the Orpheum)
4. Hole In The Wall (drinks + a game of pool)
5. Coming across a foot fetishist and his new conquest outside of Hole In The Wall.
6. The Edge & 440
7. The fight that started at Orphan Andy's. I hate fags & their loud mouth'd fag hags. Shut up cunt!
8. Woods kicking the ass of the fat turd that threw wing sauce in his face.
9. Mr. S Leather's fisting videos
10. Brandy Ho's in the Castro
11. DOSA
12. Joey Arias + Sherry Vine @ The Rrazz Room
13. SOME THING EVIL @ The Stud (& seeing all of the SF peoples)
14. The Grubsteak (those burgers are superb)
15. Haight-Ashbury
16. Toxic Waist werking Raya Light's Farrah wig.
17. Toxic's lips making splash (yet again) - this time up north @ the "All About Evil" premiere.
18. All About Evil (an homage to horror films of the past)
19. El Farolito
20. Union Square
21. Blondie's Pizza
22. Driving around town - Chinatown, Lombard Street (damn tourists), Marina
23. Views of the Alcatraz, Golden Gate & Bay Bridges
24. Blowfish Sushi
25. Mitchell's Ice Cream
26. Cocktailgate @ Truck
27. Shannon
28. Miss Jupiter (Indigenous Basterds, lalala)
29. Naan N' Curry
30. Afterhours in Tenderloin & hanging outside of Power Exchange
Whew. Did we actually cram all of that into a weekend? Yup. Even that insane fight on Thursday night/Friday morn. I'm just happy that no one was seriously hurt. Woods escaped with a few bruised and scratches - which I find hot. Hrmph. At least the SFPD were totally cool about it. As well as the staff at OA's - they didn't ask us to leave. Instead, they apologized for the incident.
As fun as it was, I'm glad it's over tho . I always seem to be reminded that I don't travel that well with others besides Woods - not that I was annoyed my travel companions or anything of the sort. I have just become so accustomed to travelling with Woods that it's second nature to me. And it's what I prefer.
*sigh*
Well, it's time to get back to the grind. I see LA is welcoming me back with open arms. Yay.
The weekend was outrageously exciting - speaking for myself of course. I gathered my brother and KP enjoyed their time in SF, but at times I couldn't get a read on them. Moods - it runs in the family.
Oh well, I think I shall list the key moments from the trip. Drumroll please!
*drumroll*
1. Juanita More's Funky Chicken Dinner @ Mars Bars. Dining Out For AIDS, yay for good causes!
2. Getting cruised at Mars Bars.
3. Wicked (& the bum fight on the walk to the Orpheum)
4. Hole In The Wall (drinks + a game of pool)
5. Coming across a foot fetishist and his new conquest outside of Hole In The Wall.
6. The Edge & 440
7. The fight that started at Orphan Andy's. I hate fags & their loud mouth'd fag hags. Shut up cunt!
8. Woods kicking the ass of the fat turd that threw wing sauce in his face.
9. Mr. S Leather's fisting videos
10. Brandy Ho's in the Castro
11. DOSA
12. Joey Arias + Sherry Vine @ The Rrazz Room
13. SOME THING EVIL @ The Stud (& seeing all of the SF peoples)
14. The Grubsteak (those burgers are superb)
15. Haight-Ashbury
16. Toxic Waist werking Raya Light's Farrah wig.
17. Toxic's lips making splash (yet again) - this time up north @ the "All About Evil" premiere.
18. All About Evil (an homage to horror films of the past)
19. El Farolito
20. Union Square
21. Blondie's Pizza
22. Driving around town - Chinatown, Lombard Street (damn tourists), Marina
23. Views of the Alcatraz, Golden Gate & Bay Bridges
24. Blowfish Sushi
25. Mitchell's Ice Cream
26. Cocktailgate @ Truck
27. Shannon
28. Miss Jupiter (Indigenous Basterds, lalala)
29. Naan N' Curry
30. Afterhours in Tenderloin & hanging outside of Power Exchange
Whew. Did we actually cram all of that into a weekend? Yup. Even that insane fight on Thursday night/Friday morn. I'm just happy that no one was seriously hurt. Woods escaped with a few bruised and scratches - which I find hot. Hrmph. At least the SFPD were totally cool about it. As well as the staff at OA's - they didn't ask us to leave. Instead, they apologized for the incident.
As fun as it was, I'm glad it's over tho . I always seem to be reminded that I don't travel that well with others besides Woods - not that I was annoyed my travel companions or anything of the sort. I have just become so accustomed to travelling with Woods that it's second nature to me. And it's what I prefer.
*sigh*
Well, it's time to get back to the grind. I see LA is welcoming me back with open arms. Yay.
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