Thanks to the modern communications of FacePlace (Facebook), I have done the "unthinkable" by touching more than just a nerve with two people - one who "was" a good friend (I used "was" instead of "is" due to the fact that we are no longer on speaking terms) and one who is my sibling (I was never really that close to him anyway). Since I have a tendency to vocalize my thoughts, certain people have come to find it quite offending. I guess if the truth hurts, then it hurts. I would think that having someone challenge you on your thoughts/actions it would make you want to open up dialogue in turn making you a stronger individual, but instead these two peoples crawled back into their cages showing off their true colors - the color of a coward.
Sidenote: my "coward" comment may sounds harsh, but life is too short for sugarcoating. We all need to step up and own our baggage.
It's actually refreshing because through all of this it is helping me weed out the bullshit in my life. I think it personally hurt me more when BJ did it since we are/were friends, but with my brother, I wasn't really that upset to be quite honest.
I have come to certain realizations with the relationship I have with my brother - see the prior blog entry: Of The Same, But Oh So Different. We don't relate to each other. We are like that old saying about "oil and water" - we just don't mix. It may have to do with the fact that I grew up closer to my mother while he and my sister were split between my parents. My father had a stronger hold on my siblings - toying with their feelings and such. The fact that I was so much closer to my mother caused a huge rift between the Lopenski childrens. My father ended up accusing me of taking sides - and for once, he was right. I was quite upfront about it, but of course, he tried to spin it to his benefit as best as he could. He was selling it, but I wasn't buying it. Bah-zing! And ever since then, I've been estranged from my father. I've always believed my brother has faulted me for that because he sees my dad as "the almighty". Yawn.
Anyway, it may seem to be that I am on a roll with this "not afraid to speak my mind" thing, so I'm curious as to who will be the next one to fall? I mean everything happens in threes right? So if that holds true, there is someone waiting in the shadows just ripe to be rather annoyed with me. Of course, my feeling is "fuck 'em if they can't handle the truth", but hopefully whoever is annoyed with me will have the balls to talk it out with me instead of attempting to hurt me with cheap shots. Cowards.
So my advice to those of you who post information regarding your whereabouts, thoughts, feelings and the like on FacePlace/Twatter/MySpace, prepare for any and all feedback you get from that. You only have yourself to blame for putting it out there. If you don't want to hear it, then don't talk about it. It's that simple.